In this section: 12 poems, 4 photos
Daniel cleaned twin windows facing the mountain.
Cleared away grime two years in the making.
I cooked supper while he looked out.
"What a shame when birds slam into glass."
Then, suddenly, one did.
A big sound. Then, down.
Tiger prowled the deck to claim his surprise supper.
Then jumped up on the screen to announce the meal.
We scrambled outside.
The oval body, more than stunned.
Dead. Neck broken on glass masquerading as air.
We'd never seen one fly so high.
Never seen one so close.
Never held one in my hands.
Hunters must all the time.
Topknot dangling. Eyes closed. Heart stopped.
So many shades, soft gray and brown scalloped with black.
Still feet and pointed toes.
"Do you want me to bury it?"
No, I'll lay it at the top of the land.
At the edge of the woods
where the mountain lion roam at night.
Sing a prayer for its soul
to soar higher than houses with solid air.
To soar into another life quicker than coveys
scurry through dry grasses in the moonlight.
The cat-pacing, pacing the deck.
Excited by its whiff of wildness.
I led him outside, in the opposite direction.
If he hunts for it, all right.
But the quail deserves a head start.
Last night I cuddled around my sweetheart's slim frame,
made more slender by my absence.
The boy doesn't know how to eat unless someone feeds him.
I dreamed his body was my mother's body.
The body I now know better than my own.
The pendulous breasts of old age,
earned in part by suckling three children.
We were born out of this body,
a fact more clear to me
now that I've tended her body
as a cross of nurse, lover, and daughter.
Her body is the body of my future.
Already, I'm on the downhill slope towards my death,
assuming I limp through old age to find it.
My breasts can no longer be called
perky in a miracle of defying gravity.
Now they comply with gravity,
and start their descent to my ribcage.
Mother and I weigh the same.
Our bellies begin to look the same.
Mine slightly more toned.
She is the best looking 89-year-old woman we know.
Back home, though,
I no longer have to think
about anyone else's shit but my own.
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